8/15/2005

For the love of IF

As I have mentioned before, Puregon Pen is (was) my new pet. I have no need for it any longer, but I've kept it in my fridge for a rainy day. You know, if I randomly feel like stabbing myself in the gut with a faux pen for the rush. I do not, however, have the same feelings for the evil Cetrorelix (Cetrotide for Yanks) injection, which butchered my stomach, rendering it unrecognisable. Er, or bruised it a bit.

Gather round, gather round:
I know, ew. Also, I apologise for the unbuttoned pants. The bruise was at the beltline and the only way I could flaunt it was by undoing my cords. Molly should be pleased though, she's always trying to get me to take my clothes off. I also wanted to take a picture of myself with the syringe between my teeth whilst wrapping a bit of rubber just above my elbow, but The Dude thought it would be in poor taste.

Apparently Cetrorelix requires you to give the injection at a 45 degree angle, and I was never very good at geometry, hence the botched job. I was a bit concerned too, as I had to give myself one Cetrorelix injection every night for four days on the left side of my stomach. The right side was reserved just for the Puregon Pen. I envisioned a multi-coloured left side of my stomach, and as pretty as that would be, I didn't really want that to happen. It was bad enough that with the one bruise I had to keep pulling my shirt down at work to cover it. How would one explain such an oddly-placed bruise? Luckily, I somehow mastered the 45 degree angle and now all that's left on my stomach are the odd injection marks and a gradually fading yellowish-brown bruise.

All of these injections and pills (for those keeping score at home: 8 total, not including the pessaries yet to come) lead to one thing - IUI #4 that is to take place tomorrow. I'm quite ambivalent about it at the moment. I'm so accostomed to disappointment after these three very long years of nothing that it's hard to be even the slightest bit optimistic. I think I have a bit more faith in this cycle than the previous IUIs because it's a completely new regimen for me. This is the first one we have had to pay for as well, so it is yet another reason to hope it doesn't fail. I feel like I'm just going through the motions, and whatever happens, happens.

No doubt WHYBAML will pat me on the back tomorrow for yet another ovulatory well-done. I might even paint my toenails.

15 comments:

Manuela said...

Well judging by your reaction to my feet... I think toe-nail polish is definitely in order. (By the way... your most recent comment over on my blog left me PML... pissing myself laughing)

And... let me not forget... YOWCH! EEKS! You poor thing... the bruising... I feel for you. I can only trust that the Dude is doing his diligent best to ensure that your injection sites are being lovingly iced on an hourly basis??

Oh... and who cares about the undone pants... what I CARE about is that annoyingly blurry pic of your bling... c'mon... focus girl... FOCUS.

Nico said...

I totally ignored the angle recommendations for my shots. I wonder if it actually makes any difference?

Good luck tomorrow!!! Hopefully all these injections will make all the difference!

K said...

No one told me about the 45 degree angle - that explains why I was black and blue all over.

Best wishes for tomorrow!

PJ said...

Nice bruise. It's good that you have a photo-log of your trials.

I hope everything goes well tomorrow. Everything is crossed over here.

Suz said...

That's quite a bruise you have there! It's almost, but not quite, bigger than the bling...

Good luck tomorrow!

Molly said...

Yeow -- take it all off, girlfriend!

I want a better look at that ring, by the way. The Dude was very nice to you.

Good luck tomorrow, friend.

Dooneybug said...

Well, there's enough optimism on this side of the fence to get you through.

Good luck tomorrow!

Susan / holdingpattern said...

That looks like quite a large RING you have there. Can we see a closer-up shot?

mm said...

Wow- three spam comments in a row. You are so, like, popular!!! That is a sexy snazzy bruise, my friend, one that gives you much IF street cred. I'll be thinking of you and crossing things left and right tomorrow. Good luck!!

T said...

What spammers don't have the common courtesy to compliment you on a bruise? Well done and good luck tomorrow!

Panda said...

Actually, Mr/Ms Anonymous Personage, the quote is: " your work is to discover your WORK"

It looks like yours is to bang yourself around a bit. At least you have something nice and sparkly to look at whilst inflicting the damage.

Good luck with the turkey basting tomorrow.

Julie said...

Oh, owie! That's gotta hurt. Hope everything goes well tomorrow (or today, depending on when you read this)

Ova Girl said...

Here's hoping for IUI 4! And fabulous tummy bruise by the way. How the hell does someone give themself a 45 degree angle injection by the way? Did the syringes come with a free pertractor? (or whatever that half circle thingy with all the numbers on it is called...have now managed to totally ruin smooth flow of pithy comment. Bah!)

Emma B. said...

That looks awful! Wishing you the best of luck for tomorrow, though!

Pamplemousse said...

Hope the sperm were delivered OK! You can't complain though until your whole tummy is covered in bruises a la moi!