Before I forget, thank you so much for the thoughtful comments after my last "oh woe is me" post. I love you all dearly and I'm glad you're here. Now onto business...
I have come to the realisation in the past few weeks that I need to be pumped full of medications. The more hormones the better! Bring it on! Since I stopped taking meds for IUI I feel lost, both emotionally and physically. I have had a reemergence of the anxiety that used to rule my life prior to being treated for IF, and my body is so out of whack, once again made to face the symptoms of PCOS with no medicinal intervention. My PCOSness (if it wasn't a word it is now) is rather latent when I'm having treatment, you know, barring the whole polycystic ovaries thing that has a *slight* impact on my infertility. Now the PCOS is all up in my business and between plucking the plenitude of errant hairs that grow in non-hair friendly places and my perceived impending baldness I am getting rather cross.
I am hoping that the IVF drugs that I am apparently soon to start redress the balance a bit. I am a vain, vain woman with enough self-confidence issues without PCOS deciding that the infertility just ain't enough to darken my days. I used to pursue more holistic treatment, regarding both PCOS and infertility in general, but those days have long passed. Instead, pass the stuff I can inject straight into me please.
On a slightly unrelated note, at the wedding last Saturday I once again trotted out my much loved and successful retort to, "So Pru...do you have any kids?". I know Smug Fertiles consider this quite an innocuous question, and let's face it, a simple "No." is so boring and frankly does not make me feel as if I'm being enough of a bitch in response. So when met with this question Saturday I twice answered, "No, I have a canary." and was satisfied to leave it at that. One person looked at me with a hint of fear, probably envisioning me at home with knotted hair, wild eyes, laughing maniacally whilst setting a place for my canary at dinner. I'm not saying that person is too far from the truth, but hey...infertility can have a strange effect on a girl. The other person thought my comment was funny and proceeded to ask me about my bird. They will not be killed.
Sliding further into the land of non sequitur, I have added some new bloggers to my list over yonder. Please check them out because there are some funny bitches with interesting stories to tell out there that not many people know about. I know, I know...you already subscribe to 80 blogs on bloglines (:::cough:::Mollywogger::::cough::::), but what is the harm of a few more? You know you want to. It will make you feel gooooooooooood...
12 comments:
May I be so bold as to presume (blink) that I (blink) am a funny bitch? I didn't know how much this was a title to which I sincerely aspire, until I saw it in print on your blog!
And... how much longer will it be until you can find solace in the injectables of IVF??? In the meanwhile... I'm sending you happy thoughts of many hormone filled syringes.
Excellent canary comeback. I may have to use it.
Will report back on any reactive twitches, expressions of fear and accusations of dottiness.
Fuck, I hate that question. Like your response. I don't have a canary, but I am a crazy cat lady, so that could work.
Viva la tweezerman!
Glad you're feeling better, dear. Hormones, ahoy!
And if you all would quit being so goddamned WITTY and INSIGHTFUL, then I wouldn't have to subscribe to 80 FUCKING BLOGS.
(By the way, that includes my favorite celebrity gossip sites. Those surely don't count, do they?)
I find that the hormones give me that just slightly off look--perfect for scaring fertiles shitless when they ask why I haven't had kids yet. Enjoy!!
Pru, I fear smug fertile people the most because they are starting to as me and my husband when we are starting a family. We have friends who are dorks, but feel vaildated because they now have a baby and hang out with other parents from their baby group. Ugghhhh! Also, I feel that my PCO syptoms are way beter whilst I'm on the clomid, even though I feel quite unhinged when I'm on them. I'm worried that when I stop it, the PCO pmt symptoms are going to come back too strong.
How did the consult go?
And thanks for making me realise that I'm way too polite in my retorts!
I used to say 'I have two cats and a husband' in answer to that question, so I love the canary comeback. Quite the spin - I don't know anyone looking forward to the drugs!
YaY! Pru's going to be shooting up. I hope those drugs work their magic on you dear.
PCOS sucks man! I have it too, but since starting metformin the visual symptoms have gotten a whole lot better. No more acne or hair where I don't want it. Just a suggestion. Even with the metformin, I feel emotionally better when I'm on some sort of fertility medication. Makes me feel like I'm doing something.
"I have a canary," I love it! Do you think I can get away with that line even if I don't have a canary?
Greetings fellow PCOSer. A kindred soul who understands the need for a tweezer selection at hand at any time. I've been trying for 3 years and on my 3rd IVF I've managed to get pregnant and stay that way for the last 21 weeks, so hang in there, it does and will happen. While finally being pregnant is a joy and absolutely terrifying in its (hopefully imagined) fragility the PCOS symptoms have reached hitherto never before seen levels in my current state. Even though I am nowhere near "glowing" I wouldn't change it for all the smooth hairless skin in the world. Good luck in your IVF trek. I wish I went staight to IVF rather than pissing around with all the other useless treatments before I got here.
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