12/06/2005

Floating on seas of disbelief

Or, to go the route of the crude and unimaginative...well fuck me.

There once was a test, peed on by a girl at 10dp3dt. The girl looked at the test after a minute and decided that the second window, was, like all the others that came before, a stark and offensive white. The girl sighed, rolled her eyes, and sat on the toilet pondering how to tell her husband that this too had failed. She got up, went to put the test in the bin that had seen many of these white sticks in its short time, and realised that there was a second line. The girl felt her stomach rising up through her throat, believing that in any minute it would fade to white.

She ran up the stairs to tell the boy, waving the test and saying, "oh my god" over and over again. The boy grabbed it, peered at the stick and shouted, "I don't know how to read one of these things!" The girl frantically explained that he was clearly a fucking idiot, and that two lines meant something good. Something never anticipated. The boy hugged the girl tightly and proceeded to lecture the girl on fully cleaning off the stick after urination. He is nothing if not practical.

The girl spent all of 11dp3dt pretending to work, but internally agonising over ectopics, chemical pregnancies, miscarriages and dodgy pregnancy tests. The boy spent his day shaking and avoiding all emails from the girl lest they contain bad news. The girl got home and wasted no time peeing on another stick. The line was evident, but lighter than the day before. The girl and the boy panic. Perhaps it is all an illusion. Perhaps the joy and excitement will be over before it really began.

They wonder how they will make it to the blood test on Friday. If they make it to that point and it is good news, they will worry about the first ultrasound to see if there is life inside that crazy, mixed up body. They don't know what they would do if there was not. They do know, however, that the unimaginable bliss seeing the two lines for the first time in 4 years of trying, and those 30 seconds of shock, amazement and joy made all of that agony go away, if only for a moment.

57 comments:

Pamplemousse said...

Let me be the very first to say Yee-haw!!!! Congrats!!! Whoo-hoo!!!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations!!!!

statia said...

Hoooray!!!! I had good feelings about all of this.

pixi said...

OMG, hooray!!! You had me scared there for a minute. First double lines - how thrilling, how awesome.

Funny, my husband always asks if I wiped the stick off, too. Jeez.

Anyway, very exciting, and I'll keep my fingers crossed for Fri.

Woohoo!!

luminista said...

Yep.

I KNEW IT!

And I feel compelled to remind you that my first 3 HPTs went like this:

#1 - barely there line
#2 (one day later)- no line at all. Stark white.
#3 (two days later) - barely there line, even bare-er than #1.

So. I join everyone else in all the land shrieking: OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(and we all will wait with baited breath for Friday.!!)

Jen-Again said...

So happy that you got to see the double line! Congrats and we're all waiting anxiously with you until Friday!

Molly said...

I am doing FUCKING CARTWHEELS for you, Pru! And peeing myself! Simultaneously!! It's kind of messy!!

Best news of the week!

elle said...

HOLY SHIT, BATMAN!!!!!!! That is innnnnnnnnnnnnnncredible news! And, let me say, STEP AWAY FROM THE PEE STICKS! All you need is one to tell you the good/bad news. Multiple testing is indicative of nothing! Just enjoy it!

Cass said...

Yay!!!!! That is all.

Cass said...

Oh, oops! One more thing - the wait until Friday is agony for me, too. Argh.

tania said...

GREAT news!!!!!!!

What more can I say?????????

Yippee!!!!!!!

thalia said...

Oh ms pru, I had the feeling thbat you'd got a positive and just weren't telling us yet. That's wonderful wonderful news!!

Btw I bet if you just showed up at the docs tomorrow and said you were there for a beta they wouldn't throw you out.

You and ovagirl all in the space of 24 hours - how will blogland cope with all the happiness?

Hoping as hard as I can that the good news continues.

zhl said...

Great news. I had gotten worried when we didn't hear. So hoping that Friday's test just confirms the best.

Mary Scarlet said...

Well done, you two! Congratulations and hoping that it's all an upward swing from here. Double lines rule.

Vacant Uterus said...

YAY,YAY,YAY,Pru!!! I'm so happy for you both!

Ova Girl said...

Oh Pru that is fantastic! I hope Friday cements your good news... yeehah!!

Alexa said...

May I tell you again how excited I am?
I am toasting you right now with a pear drop, my friend--All possible congratulations and good wishes!

Kath said...

Heeee-haw! Can't say how thrilled I am to hear this, Pru! Hoping Friday brings you a confirmation of this momentous, fantastic, superdeeduperdee (so thrilled I'm having to borrow words from my nephew here) news!

Well, DID YOU wipe the stick, pee girl???

DD said...

Oh G*d, I am Soooo happy for you! And Thalia ruined the surprise for me as I hadn't read OG's post yet! I so prayed for you both because it gives ME hope as well.

Kim said...

Oh My God!
How the hell can you wait until Friday?!
I can't wait until Friday!

April said...

I am so incredibly happy for you that I'm crying. Big sobby Tammy Faye mascara crying.

May happiness, health and good fortune rain upon you.

Oh God Pru. I am so happy for you.

PJ said...

I've been out of touch with everyone for quite a while work/home stuff going on, but I just had to check in on you.

Congrats. All of my bits will be crossed for you that Friday brings good news and the u/s confirms it.

Lori said...

Yippee!!!! What great news!!!

Emma B. said...

Oh, I'm so absolutely thrilled for you!!!

Georgia said...

Wahooooo!! Oh yeah!! A 2nd line for Ms Pru!!! So many good vibes coming from me to you!!
xoxoxo

fisher queen said...

WOW WOW WOW!!!! Great news!!!

Alex/Infertile Gourmet said...

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congratulations!

Manuela said...

SCRRREEEEEEEAAAAAMIIIINNNNNGGGG!!!!Sobbing... peeing my pants with joy... oh please please please let this be true....

Wavery said...

Wow, fantastic turn of events, but Friday? Seriously?

If you set up a paypal account I'll pay to have you pee on another stick before then!

Susie said...

OMG! Yay!

T said...

Well I don't know nothin' from nothin' 'bout pee sticks, but I've been told not to try to interpret the daily line color. Congratulations!

Lindy said...

Oh, Pru!!! I'm just bouncing up and down with joy for you!Congratulations on that second line!

Can't wait to hear Friday's beta number!

Jenn said...

YAY!!! Congratulations!

Suz said...

Many congratulations on the second line! YAY!!

persephone said...

oh my goodness! hurray!!!

and my Gd, isn't 11dp3dt enough time for a beta? did you say FRIDAY?!

DeadBug said...

Oh, Pru! That's wonderful, wonderful, wonderful news!

Do not be psyched out by the varying darknesses of pregnancy tests. On beta day (14 DPO) with a beta of 136, my line was faint as faint could be.

Hoping for continued good news from you, my dear.

--Bugs

MC said...

This is fantastic news and very exciting.

joie said...

Yay!!! That is so exciting!

Panda said...

Fuck me too.

happy little panda...happy little panda...

Like my celebratory dance?

Bring on friday. You know you have half the planet rooting for you.

Nico said...

I hope that 30 seconds turns into a lot more seconds! Woo-hoo!

Dooneybug said...

Gah!! I'm so happy for you!!

And you're right. The worrying will never go away.

Wishing you a speedy Friday!

deborah said...

Oh Pru, Pru, Pru...you just keep peeing on those sticks, my friend! And ignore the relative darkness of the lines. It means NOTHING. Trust me, I know.

This is wonderful, wonderful news!

kiwi said...

What wonderful news! I am so happy for you!!!

Jen said...

Yay yay yay yay yay! What great news!

Thinking great thoughts for your beta Friday!

tinainnc said...

so great, im so happy for you. Yeppie!!!
www.fertilityblues.blogspot.com

Lala said...

nice, very very nice!

Lynnette said...

Great news! Can't wait to hear more...

HoldingPattern said...

You da bomb, woman!
Congrats.

Millie said...

Woooooo hoooooooo!!! Congrats!!!!

mm said...

Omg omg omg! I'm flipping over here, as I'm sure you are, too. Yay!!!! Your last paragraph sent me into tears. Good luck on Friday. May it get here soon. Yay again!!!

amyesq said...

Umm... this is very exciting!!! Can't wait 'til Friday!

Julie said...

Congats from Guatemala!!! OMG - that is suh good news! Grow little one grow!!!

shit, I think I just used up my ration of exclamation points. Oh well, you're worth it :)

WonderMama said...

Pru!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!
I am SO happy for you. Wow, wow, wow!
Also- STEP AWAY FROM THE PEE STICKS
They will only make you crazy.

Manuela said...

Tapping toe.... checking watch...


Hellloooooooo??????

What?! I never figured you for a sadist, really... but what else am I to gather from this complete lack of updates!!! Are you CRAZY!!! Do you know what you are doing to us out here?! It's already THURSDAY!!!

ms pickled eggs said...

Huge congrats! Turns out I was having a premonition after all.

wessel said...

Wow, that's wonderful!! Congratulations! May you have an easy pregnancy. :-)

hairyfarmerfamily said...

The fact that I'm all smiley and happy for you at this late date is a bit absurd, innit?!